All things new again

This has been a rough month at our house. Isaiah has been congested and isn't sleeping well, so neither are the rest of us. Then everyone buy Omar got the flu, and I'm on a new medication that makes me feel sick most of the time anyway... I've kind of been a zombie mom (thus the lack of posting, etc.), just trying to get through each day as best I can. Unfortunately, that usually means I'm cranky mom, too.

But February is looking up. Omar is starting a new tour at work on Monday that he is really excited about. His boss also offered him an opportunity to come and work in the machine shop in a very specialized and very Omar position, so he is excited about that, too. His last tour was really hard on him because they didn't have enough work to keep him busy. It wasn't until the last week that he really got to start doing analysis on his project. He's happy to be moving on, but sad he didn't get to finish the work that finally started.

Helaman didn't got back to preschool in January, and that's been an adjustment for us, too. My plan was to do structured activities with him on my own a couple of hours a day. We did manage to do that, once. The rest of the time I've just been dragging myself around. I hate feeling that way. But Helaman is much happier not going to that preschool, so I'm sure it was the right thing. I don't want him to start off his long life of school ahead hating it.

As of today, February 1st, I'm doing better, too. Isaiah slept a lot more last night, and I did to. That really helped. I took him to nursery today, too. I actually got to go to Sunday School and listen and participate. I feel so uplifted. The lesson in Sunday school was on the atonement, and I am so happy to be reminded of that tremendous blessing.

I've made some really bad decisions in my life. That's a long story... and not one I like to tell (or even remember). But today, for the first time, I can see how what a blessing the road I've traveled was for me. I am so grateful to have a depth of understanding about the atonement and the love of my Savior that only came because of those bad choices, and my repentance, and his infinite mercy and forgiveness. Glory to God in the highest. When we turn our lives over to Him he really can take the bad and through his power make it good.

I'm grateful for that atonement at the end of this hard month especially. I'm not a nice tired mom, and I shudder to think how unkind I can be to my sweet boys (and husband). But as I repent daily (hourly) He continues to forgive me and help me do better. And I really am starting to see the change as He fills me up with His light and helps me be more like Him. I'm so grateful that His atonement is infinite, and as many times as I sin and repent He forgives me. If there was a limit I would be in big trouble.

The sun in shining and it's warm today. I'm happy. February is going to be great!